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9/11 Tragedy: As I Remember Those Lost, They STILL Remain In My Thoughts!

  I would like to share my thoughts and memories of a day that should never be forgotten. As the 10th anniversary of a day that united so many all over the world is among us once again, I am sharing my memories of a day that started for me with a hysterical phone call from a friend of mine (who is deceased now) urging me to turn my TV channel to CNN. As I am sitting up on the edge of my bed trying to process what I'm seeing on the tube and compute what my hysterical friend is saying on the phone, holding it away from my ear & rubbing my eyes, at first I thought I had the wrong channel. The reporters were speaking so fast, I first thought it was a trailer to a new movie coming out. I'm adjusting my focus to the first Tower with excessive smoke billowing into the air, papers falling like confetti, STILL not believing or maybe not wanting to believe what I was actually seeing. The phone is laying next to me, I can still hear my friend crying. By now I am absorbing the visual and audio mayhem. I have no idea how long it was, because everything still seemed to be moving in an unrealistically slow pace. Kinda like Keanu Reeves slowing bending back and dodging those bullets in the Matrix. I guess that's where I  thought I was for those first moments. Then I see a small helicopter in the distance. It looked like a small mosquito, and then, BAM, BOOM,.....Did I just see what I thought I saw? The second Tower just got sliced through the side by a Passenger Airplane. I got cold and absolutley could NOT move. Everything went silent. My friend on the phone, the TV commentator, everything. My mouth dropped. All of my movements after that didn't make sense, but what I just witnessed on the television DID'NT MAKE SENSE either. I hung up the phone, because his cries got louder and I couldn't understand what he was saying anyway. I got up immediately, opened my door, looked outside up into the air. What was I looking for? I hadn't a clue. Planes overhead, bombs dropping, shooting in the streets? I had NO clue what I was looking for. STILL trying to process what I saw, I sat back down glued to the tube. I don't know who, but some cameraman started filming close up shots of the side of the buildings. I saw people bottlenecked in the windows, smoke blowing around them, some waving what looked like shirts, flags, cloths, anything, they were waving it. I was focused on one man in particular. He seemed to be half way in and out of a window. Frantically waving what looked like a white shirt, he started out of the window hugging the side of the building. He was trying to crawl somewhere, anywhere and I was holding my breath, whispering under my breath, 'hold on, hold on, hold on',... like I was a coach or something and that he could actually hear me. Then the unimaginable happened. He lost his grip and started falling like a wounded bird from the sky. For me to process watching this desperate mans fall from such a height, I was telling myself he looked sort of angelic as he fell, because he was falling backwards with his arms outstretched, as though he was expecting some force to catch him before he landed. Then I saw several others follow in what was, I'm sure a last desperate and agonizing choice not made in hast. I wrote this blog last week, but it took me till this moment 9/8/11 to try to put my thoughts down as I remembered them, because every time I think of that day, I hurt in an aguished painful way inside for the victims, the rescuers, the families of all directly affected with those lost on 9/11/01. 

  Although I wasn't at the heart of the turmoil in New York that day, I still feel as though I lost something that day. I am suspect to things around me even today. I am forever changed and I don't know if it was for the better or not, but I have serious trust issues when it comes to where I go, what I do and what I say after 9/11/01.   

  Every year at the same time, I STILL feel the same multiple floods of emotion that I felt on September 11, 2001.  Among this post, I am inserting photos and video that always reminds of the personal human tragedy and loss experienced by myself and other Americans, with the voice of several victims and an operator that felt the helplessness and fear that we all felt as we watched in grief, our fellow neighbors suffering from an attack upon ALL of our Freedoms as Americans!

A photo of a close friend of mine, also a proud retired member of the NYPD, standing in front of the New York Skyline showing the Twin Towers-1990

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September 11,  2001

Emergency 911 Calls from Kevin Cosgrove, Melissa Doi, Doug Cherry, and John Ostaru

 

To ALL of those lost 2001-2011

Aaron Neville 'Ava Maria'

 

 

A selection of audio recordings from the Federal Aviation Administration (F.A.A.), North American Aerospace Defense Command (Norad) and American Airlines from the morning of Sept. 11, 2001. The recordings, some of which have been published previously, are being released in a multimedia report originally intended to be part of the Sept. 11 Commission’s 2004 report. Read Related Article »

The 9/11 Tapes: The Story in the Air: http://nyti.ms/oAtjuC  Click the available links to go to the original article, The New York Times, with the scrolling timeline!

Remains of the Day: Mementos of the attacks on 9/11 via BBC America 

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-14750251

Watch 'One More Day' from Bret Michaels

 

A Look Back at the People of Flight 93: Photos

via Discovery News

http://news.discovery.com/human/flight-93-profiles-110908.html#mkcpgn=hknws1

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'Evanescence' w/'Art Of Dying', 'Fools For Rowan' in Nashville Tn.-2011

I took my daughter to her first show last night and it did my heart good to see her having such a great time. It maybe the only thing she talks about for the next few days, BUT times like these are priceless and worth every second of future memories!

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Top 10 Gruesome Fairy Tale Origins

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Brothers Grimm
Jakob Grimm
Born: January 4, 1785
Hanau, Germany
Died: September 20, 1863
Berlin, Germany
German scholar and author

Wilhelm Grimm
Born: February 24, 1786
Hanau, Germany
Died: December 16, 1859
Berlin, Germany
German scholar and author

Read more: Grimm Brothers Biography - children, death, history, school, old, information, born, time, year http://www.notablebiographies.com/Gi-He/Grimm-Brothers.html#ixzz1SOXaynYW

Bros. Grimm Home Page: http://www.pitt.edu/~dash/grimmtales.html
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Disney has alot to answer for, ummmm, what am I thinking. It's ALL about Money and Happily Ever After for them. ANYWAY, I found the chilling origins of these Fairy Tales intriguing. Hope You will too. The listverse.com link under the above photo will link you to the original post. I'm also including additional links so you can learn more about the Grimm Brothers, of their life and stories.  This post is for entertainment purposes only. Enjoy!

10. The Pied Piper

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In the tale of the Pied Piper, we have a village overrun with rats. A man arrives dressed in clothes of pied (a patchwork of colors) and offers to rid the town of the vermin. The villagers agree to pay a vast sum of money if the piper can do it – and he does. He plays music on his pipe which draws all the rats out of the town. When he returns for payment – the villagers won’t cough up so the Pied Piper decides to rid the town of children too! In most modern variants, the piper draws the children to a cave out of the town and when the townsfolk finally agree to pay up, he sends them back. In the darker original, the piper leads the children to a river where they all drown (except a lame boy who couldn’t keep up). Some modern scholars say that there are connotations of pedophilia in this fairy tale.

9. Little Red Riding Hood

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The version of this tale that most of us are familiar with ends with Riding Hood being saved by the woodsman who kills the wicked wolf. But in fact, the original French version (by Charles Perrault) of the tale was not quite so nice. In this version, the little girl is a well bred young lady who is given false instructions by the wolf when she asks the way to her grandmothers. Foolishly riding hood takes the advice of the wolf and ends up being eaten. And here the story ends. There is no woodsman – no grandmother – just a fat wolf and a dead Red Riding Hood. The moral to this story is to not take advice from strangers.

8. The Little Mermaid

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The 1989 version of the Little Mermaid might be better known as “The big whopper!” In the Disney version, the film ends with Ariel the mermaid being changed into a human so she can marry Eric. They marry in a wonderful wedding attended by humans and merpeople. But, in the very first version by Hans Christian Andersen, the mermaid sees the Prince marry a princess and she despairs. She is offered a knife with which to stab the prince to death, but rather than do that she jumps into the sea and dies by turning to froth. Hans Christian Andersen modified the ending slightly to make it more pleasant. In his new ending, instead of dying when turned to froth, she becomes a “daughter of the air” waiting to go to heaven – so, frankly, she is still dead for all intents and purposes.

 

7. Snow White

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In the tale of snow white that we are all familiar with, the Queen asks a huntsman to kill her and bring her heart back as proof. Instead, the huntsman can’t bring himself to do it and returns with the heart of a boar. Now, fortunately disney hasn’t done too much damage to this tale, but they did leave out one important original element: in the original tale, the Queen actually asks for Snow White’s liver and lungs – which are to be served for dinner that night! Also in the original, Snow White wakes up when she is jostled by the prince’s horse as he carries her back to his castle – not from a magical kiss. What the prince wanted to do with a dead girl’s body I will leave to your imagination. Oh – in the Grimm version, the tale ends with the Queen being forced to dance to death in red hot iron shoes!

 

6. Sleeping Beauty

 

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In the original sleeping beauty, the lovely princess is put to sleep when she pricks her finger on a spindle. She sleeps for one hundred years when a prince finally arrives, kisses her, and awakens her. They fall in love, marry, and (surprise surprise) live happily ever after. But alas, the original tale is not so sweet (in fact, you have to read this to believe it.) In the original, the young woman is put to sleep because of a prophesy, rather than a curse. And it isn’t the kiss of a prince which wakes her up: the king seeing her asleep, and rather fancying having a bit, rapes her. After nine months she gives birth to two children (while she is still asleep). One of the children sucks her finger which removes the piece of flax which was keeping her asleep. She wakes up to find herself raped and the mother of two kids.

5. Rumpelstiltskin

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This fair tale is a little different from the others because rather than sanitizing the original, it was modified by the original author to make it more gruesome. In the original tale, Rumpelstiltskin spins straw into gold for a young girl who faces death unless she is able to perform the feat. In return, he asks for her first born child. She agrees – but when the day comes to hand over the kid, she can’t do it. Rumpelstiltskin tells her that he will let her off the bargain if she can guess his name. She overhears him singing his name by a fire and so she guesses it correctly. Rumpelstiltskin, furious, runs away, never to be seen again. But in the updated version, things are a little messier. Rumpelstiltskin is so angry that he drives his right foot deep into the ground. He then grabs his left leg and rips himself in half. Needless to say this kills him.

4. Goldilocks and the Three Bears

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In this heart warming tale, we hear of pretty little goldilocks who finds the house of the three bears. She sneaks inside and eats their food, sits in their chairs, and finally falls asleep on the bed of the littlest bear. When the bears return home they find her asleep – she awakens and escapes out the window in terror. The original tale (which actually only dates to 1837) has two possible variations. In the first, the bears find Goldilocks and rip her apart and eat her. In the second, Goldilocks is actually an old hag who (like the sanitized version) jumps out of a window when the bears wake her up. The story ends by telling us that she either broke her neck in the fall, or was arrested for vagrancy and sent to the “House of Correction”.

3. Hansel and Gretel

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In the widely known version of Hansel and Gretel, we hear of two little children who become lost in the forest, eventually finding their way to a gingerbread house which belongs to a wicked witch. The children end up enslaved for a time as the witch prepares them for eating. They figure their way out and throw the witch in a fire and escape. In an earlier French version of this tale (called The Lost Children), instead of a witch we have a devil. Now the wicked old devil is tricked by the children (in much the same way as Hansel and Gretel) but he works it out and puts together a sawhorse to put one of the children on to bleed (that isn’t an error – he really does). The children pretend not to know how to get on the sawhorse so the devil’s wife demonstrates. While she is lying down the kids slash her throat and escape.

2. The Girl Without Hands

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Frankly, the revised version of this fairy tale is not a great deal better than the original, but there are sufficient differences to include it here. In the new version, a poor man is offered wealth by the devil if he gives him whatever is standing behind his mill. The poor man thinks it is an apple tree and agrees – but it is actually his daughter. The devil tries to take the daughter but can’t – because she is pure, so he threatens to take the father unless the daughter allows her father to chop off her hands. She agrees and the father does the deed. Now – that is not particularly nice, but it is slightly worse in some of the earlier variants in which the young girl chops off her own arms in order to make herself ugly to her brother who is trying to rape her. In another variant, the father chops off the daughter’s hands because she refuses to let him have sex with her.

1. Cinderella

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In the modern Cinderella fairy tale we have the beautiful Cinderella swept off her feet by the prince and her wicked step sisters marrying two lords – with everyone living happily ever after. The fairy tale has its origins way back in the 1st century BC where Strabo’s heroine was actually called Rhodopis, not Cinderella. The story was very similar to the modern one with the exception of the glass slippers and pumpkin coach. But, lurking behind the pretty tale is a more sinister variation by the Grimm brothers: in this version, the nasty step-sisters cut off parts of their own feet in order to fit them into the glass slipper – hoping to fool the prince. The prince is alerted to the trickery by two pigeons who peck out the step sister’s eyes. They end up spending the rest of their lives as blind beggars while Cinderella gets to lounge about in luxury at the prince’s castle.

A Draggy-Legged Journey!

My Blog Post on Fearnet.com

When I started looking for help on how to apply Zombie Makeup on Dark Skin, I had no idea I would get the responses I've received. Although there are very talented makeup artists around and they have done lots of work for Tv and Movie Zombies, there are very few that have Tutorials and or step-by-step instructions for the darker skinned undead. Thanks to Fearnet.com , Twitter, and Fearnet on Facebook: http://t.co/PCpQwJp 

I am creating this post so everyone can see and follow my step-by-step progression into the world of the undead. I am taking draggy-legged baby steps, so please be patient. I will update this post as often as possible. PLEASE feel free to leave feedback, suggestions and any other ideas you may have to help me and others that may want to know about alternative face effects for videos,TV, and movies.

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Below is a dress I got at Goodwill to bloody up for the film!

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 Zombie Prom-Promocalypse-2011

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ZombieBooth Effect!

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 Zombie Makeup Update 7-21-11

 

 Here is updated footage below of my transformation with the help of Aria and Performance Studios in Nashville Tn. I may have posted the order of footage off by one, but you'll see how it goes as you watch them. Thank You!

 

Memories of Dad-Father's Day-2011

 
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 I won't bore you guys with alot of silly stories of me and my dad, but I will tell just a couple of short memories I have of how I remember him and how he made me laugh.
  Starting off with the driving lesson. Daddy let me drive 1mile home one day and it was the first time I was physically behind the wheel, because back then we had simulation machines in school for driver's ed class. Well when we were just a few yards from the turn into our neighborhood, he told me to stop and I did, suddenly. The station wagon went into a full spin, hahahaha, I can't help but laugh at the semi-terrified look on my daddy's face, although he thought he hid his terror well, he calmly told me to put the car in park and we switched seats. Once he got us in the driveway, he started to breathe again,....LOL
  Also Daddy and Mum alternated who drove my Twin and I to middle school occassionally, and while we had breakfast, the radio played everyday on top 40 tunes of the day, and I remember 1 song in particular, that came on at the same time everyday, and when it played, that meant we were running late and had to go. I will post that song at the end of this blog.
   Last but not least, the story of me being a brat. Preteens with Twins were tough enough, but one day, I got a little to big for my britches. Daddy had been home for a change and for some reason, something sent me into a hormonal tizzy, so I decided to sass back and tell him I was going to run away. Daddy said, 'Ok, let me help You'. Crying and thinking I would call his bluff, Daddy helped me pack a suitcase, we got into the car and proceeded to I didn't know where, and along the drive he's preaching, commenting about how I will be missed and I am sobbing. Destination unknown became clear when we pulled in. It was a truck stop. He got out, came around the car and opened my door. I got out, he handed me my suitcase and started back to the car. Guess who's bluff was called?....LOL Thinking about these few memories always makes me laugh when I start to miss my Daddy, which I am, VERY much at the moment. It's been years since he passed, but I miss him terribly, as if it were just yesterday.
  I miss You Daddy!
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This is the song that played every morning at the same time, before school.

The Popcorn Song-1972